Engineer

U know what. I have never ever think of becoming an enginner.

i have dream of becoming an accountant, teacher, or at least something/job which are feminine(or at least)

But now, i think if all goes well, i am gonna become ******** in the future.which i am afraid to be.

(*edited part* as i dont wanna seem that i still cant accept the result)

I tell myself i gonna like it. And my cousin who is studying mechatronic engineering called from germany told me that Germany is fun( until he doesnt feel like wanna come back).

But, when i found out that in a class of very very few girls and and work ( in the future) under an environment of very very many guys.and when discrimination occurs.i started to feel .... uncomfortable ( or scared)

It's weird.very weird.My life gonna be different from what i have expected.Aiks.Everything just messed up these few days.what the HIGW!

OK.. i am gonna handle my own feelings until it becomes normal again. =.="

*contradiction occurs*